God, i juz dunno why, i feeling nervous abt everything? is everything gonna take place? am i really gonna be the leader over the ITE cell?

is this the sign of really becoming a leader? i'm really afraid of leading these guys... i can really say that they are a lot harder than 4 yrs ago... the people back then are easier to handle... am i really the rite person for the job? being a leader and a fren over them are 2 different things. but what if i become a leader and the guys stop asking me out? will everything be the same again?