gosh... today i juz did a very nasty thing... had lessons in the morning... so i woke my sis up... then in the end she was feeling grouchy... then in the end we quarrel... was shouting at her too... and i almost hit her... God... teach me how to be patient... teach me how to be a good bro too... i know wad i did was wrong... shouldnt have use violence against her... sigh... dunno whether is she still angry wif me or not...

08 is coming in juz a few days time... means alot of stuff... i will not be in service for some time... due to POI, overseas training... but that isnt my main concern... my main concern is tat since i'm ord-ing next yr... i know it's still a long way to go from now until sept... but i'm already planning wad am i going to do after next yr after i ord... i'm planning to study in nafa... but my future job scope i wun be working in singapore... but in foreign countries... and i'm not ready to go overseas to work and my passions is still not in overseas... God... pls show me the way...

gosh... there's something i really need to stop doing right now... i tend u lose my temper easily recently... ever since i started playing wwe in my ps 2, i've been raising up my voice to pple ard me... though i dun do tat in church... but often a times i will when things arises...

the other time i had to really control myself and talk to wei wen... oso there was once i was on my way back to camp on a cab... then the driver went on the wrong way twice... i almost flare up and scolded him... gosh... i really need to stop playing all the violent games... it makes me violent too...

after talking to shannon last nite, i felt alot better... before i called him or even reply his sms... i struggle in every msges or calling him... but i thank God that i took the courage to reply him in sms and even give him a call... cuz after sharing to him, i have the courage to step into 08... i really felt the break free of the struggle after sharing to shannon... i've learnt tat when i keep it to myself, i will nv go on or move on... but when i share, acc to my leaders, there is peace and i know tat someone is walking thru this struggle wif me and also praying for me... i know tat i'm always nv alone... thx shannon for hearing my prob and struggle last nite...

as i'm typing tis, there is a lot of fears in me... as 08 is approaching very soon... i sense fear, insecure, unsure of what is ahead of me... inside of me there are a lot of doubts... i'm really not ready to enter 08... i know i quickly gotta to solve this issue... cuz if not when 08 comes, i will struggle a lot...

God... i'm really afraid of entering 08... God... pls help me... help me out of this fear, pull me out of this uncertainty... i dun wanna dwell on my fears, what i cannot do...