Secret Place

God of my life I love You
God of my days I trust in You
Living beneath the shelter of Your wings
My heart's safe

When I am lost you found me
When I'm in need you shelter me
Lord of my life You are my secret place

Clothe me in Your presence Lord
Draw me near to You
Lord my heart I long to give to You
Living to be near You Lord
I long to see Your face
Lord forever You're my secret place

i cannot see it anymore... ... ...

truths are painful... it hurts too... though i hate it, but it has to be said... becoz know the truth and the truth will set u free... but is it fair? i dunno... maybe it does? maybe it doesnt? nobody knows but God...

God knows the best for us... He will need to discipline us too if there's a need... becoz He loves us... it hurts... deep in His heart it hurts Him too... but becoz we choose not to listen to Him and tat is why He has to discipline us in this way...

but be assured tat if we follow God's way, He will not punish us... 'And so we know and rely on the love that God has for us. God is love. whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. - 1 John 4:16

God, i juz dunno why, i feeling nervous abt everything? is everything gonna take place? am i really gonna be the leader over the ITE cell?

is this the sign of really becoming a leader? i'm really afraid of leading these guys... i can really say that they are a lot harder than 4 yrs ago... the people back then are easier to handle... am i really the rite person for the job? being a leader and a fren over them are 2 different things. but what if i become a leader and the guys stop asking me out? will everything be the same again?

oh God... i juz feel so small... i juz felt so useless... i juz dunno how to do it oh God... God u juz come and take over... i really dunno how to handle every individual... God come and teach me how oh God... i juz feel so inadequate... i'm not a good leader, not a good sp... i dun really know my sheep well oh God...

i've nv know how to counsel pple, all i know is rebuke harshly... GOD!!! TEACH ME HOW OH GOD!!! COME AND TAKE OVER!!! LEAD ME OH GOD!!! HAVE UR WAY OH GOD!!! TAKE CONTROL OH GOD!!!

gosh... today i juz did a very nasty thing... had lessons in the morning... so i woke my sis up... then in the end she was feeling grouchy... then in the end we quarrel... was shouting at her too... and i almost hit her... God... teach me how to be patient... teach me how to be a good bro too... i know wad i did was wrong... shouldnt have use violence against her... sigh... dunno whether is she still angry wif me or not...

08 is coming in juz a few days time... means alot of stuff... i will not be in service for some time... due to POI, overseas training... but that isnt my main concern... my main concern is tat since i'm ord-ing next yr... i know it's still a long way to go from now until sept... but i'm already planning wad am i going to do after next yr after i ord... i'm planning to study in nafa... but my future job scope i wun be working in singapore... but in foreign countries... and i'm not ready to go overseas to work and my passions is still not in overseas... God... pls show me the way...

gosh... there's something i really need to stop doing right now... i tend u lose my temper easily recently... ever since i started playing wwe in my ps 2, i've been raising up my voice to pple ard me... though i dun do tat in church... but often a times i will when things arises...

the other time i had to really control myself and talk to wei wen... oso there was once i was on my way back to camp on a cab... then the driver went on the wrong way twice... i almost flare up and scolded him... gosh... i really need to stop playing all the violent games... it makes me violent too...